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At present we measure our freedom as a condition. I am in a given condition. I want to be free of this condition. Right? Everybody wants to be free of their present condition. Isn't that right? When you were twelve years old – "If I only get good grades this time, I will move on very quickly. I'll be free of my present, ugly, awful teacher." "My parents are obnoxious. I am sixteen. If only I could move out of their house and be myself, I am free." Well, how about it now? Free? At each step, at each step we seek the freedom from our present, immediate condition. And the freedom is not to come by. We move from bondage to another bondage, from bondage to another bondage. "I'm tired of living in an apartment. I want a house of my own." Then you get a house of your own, that's when the problems begin. Because our idea of freedom is faulty. And for that reason, we put too much expectation into our next condition. We suffer too much from our present condition and we put too much expectation into our next condition.

"How are you?"
"Fine, Dr. Arya."
"How are you?"
"Well, all right."
Do you ever do that?
"How are you? Glad to meet you today. How are you?"
"No, really, how are you?"
"Well, all right."
What is this? Why can't we make up our minds whether we are fine or we are not fine?

We are putting our present down too much and we are putting too much stock in our next expected condition. And when we get to that next expected condition, then again immediately we begin to put that condition down and we begin to put too much stock in our next condition. Right?
"Well, all right. If I could marry that girl, I'd be so happy."
"All right, fine." You marry that girl.
Three years later – "How are you?"
"If I could only divorce that woman, that awful woman, I'd be so happy."

Happy thereafter. What is it "happiness thereafter?" What are we saying here?
Whatever we do, whatever you do with those conditions, that you have to do. That is the norm of the relative conditions of the world, but apart from those relative conditions of the world, there is another you who is unborn, infinite, immortal, nameless, genderless, the source of all beauty, source of all freedom!

If your freedom is derived, you see, after the fact of your present condition, and you say,
"I will be happy." – Hmm? –
"I will be happy." – this is future time, right? –
"I will be happy. I will have freedom (the condition Y), if I can get out of my present condition (condition X)."
"I will have Y if I move away from X."
Okay? So this independence of yours is dependent on its precedent X, presence thereof or absence thereof. What kind of independence is that which is dependent on its precedent? What kind of freedom is that?

So, my friends, your freedom is never a freedom from X-1. And when you're free from X-1, then freedom from X-2, and freedom from X-3, and X-4, and it just keeps on moving, just keeps moving.
That Y, the goal, remains ever distant.