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Fill Your Vacuum

And, you know, I feel so sad at those of you whom I see with some frequency. I perceive the problem you have, and I say, "My goodness!  This person is not seeing where his problem is really coming from."  And nobody else can show it to you: "My wife does not let me come to the Meditation Center."  "My husband is unhappy."  This, that, so on, so forth.  "Am I recognized over there?"  "Is my importance acknowledged?"  "Was I greeted with due honor when I entered?"  You see, these are very shallow symptoms where you are trying to compensate through the externals.  This "honor," "respect," "acknowledgement" stuff [points to] some other inadequacy that you feel elsewhere.  Someplace inside you there is inadequacy which you are unable to fulfill because you're unable to acknowledge it.  You are unable to see it.  Or, even though you see it rationally, you have not the courage to fill that weak spot in you.  So you are trying to look for strength, for compensation for that inadequacy in somebody else acknowledging you, in somebody else honoring you, in somebody else giving you an uplift. That is not the way of serving the world, or serving your students.  "Are my students acknowledging me?  Are they respecting me?  Am I making a good impression?"  These are all emotional blocks.  If you will be concerned on making a good impression on your students, you will never make a good impression.